Monday, September 16, 2013
Finding a new job after losing one to cancer
FUCK!!!! I'm trying to get a job so I can fix my car & pay my bills but this is really hard! I find it so hard because I got "discharged" (as the applications so nicely put it) from my last one because of problems I was having that were all caused by my awesome cancer *sarcasm*.. I'm a good worker.. I had the second fastest scans (besides my boss, who'd worked there for, like 10+ years or something like that) & my till was never more then a few cents off, if even at all! So now I need a job & am having a hard time filling out applications because seeing that section causes me to have a panic attack! But I went thru the cancer treatment so this should be a cake walk! Right? Shit... So now I have to go back to my old job place tomorrow & finally spill the beans on what I've been up to for the last 10 months... but I'm all out of my favorite hair ties anyway & have been thinking about going there for more.. Blah! Why does everything have to cost money?? Goddammit!!! I don't want to go back to that store!! But I need a job.. So it looks like I'm going to see my old boss.. FUCK!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Forgetting things can be harder when you actully try
but then when you want to remember things, you forget, like it wasn't important..
Make sure you do everything for the best reasons & not the worst.. Just an example here, not based on my life or anything but still based on real life events.. Don't date someone because they're over 21 & can get you alcohol since you're still way under age or because they can also get drugs.. Again, not based on my life personally.. Another example pulled straight from real life, but still not me personally... Don't get married with the promise of a better life & money, like, say for financial aid so you can go to collage since you're still to young & don't make nearly enough to pay for it by yourself & still have to use your parent's info .. yep.. Do things because you love them, because you want what is the very best for your life, & because you know 100% its the right thing to do, also think of what your Mother would say/do if she knew what you were doing (unless you have a care free mom that wold let you kill someone & still not care, if your mom would let you get away with murder then you have a crappy mom..)
I really wish I could forget everything I'm unhappy about.. Its really putting me in a down right fowl mood... Growing up, I really thought being an adult would go a hell of a lot better then this for me. Karma really is a bitch.. Damn... I think its wine time.. That typically helps me forget my problems.. & where my shoes are.. which would be a problem if I wasn't drinking, but when drunk, I won't care! Fuck it!
Make sure you do everything for the best reasons & not the worst.. Just an example here, not based on my life or anything but still based on real life events.. Don't date someone because they're over 21 & can get you alcohol since you're still way under age or because they can also get drugs.. Again, not based on my life personally.. Another example pulled straight from real life, but still not me personally... Don't get married with the promise of a better life & money, like, say for financial aid so you can go to collage since you're still to young & don't make nearly enough to pay for it by yourself & still have to use your parent's info .. yep.. Do things because you love them, because you want what is the very best for your life, & because you know 100% its the right thing to do, also think of what your Mother would say/do if she knew what you were doing (unless you have a care free mom that wold let you kill someone & still not care, if your mom would let you get away with murder then you have a crappy mom..)
I really wish I could forget everything I'm unhappy about.. Its really putting me in a down right fowl mood... Growing up, I really thought being an adult would go a hell of a lot better then this for me. Karma really is a bitch.. Damn... I think its wine time.. That typically helps me forget my problems.. & where my shoes are.. which would be a problem if I wasn't drinking, but when drunk, I won't care! Fuck it!
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